I'm sure every mother asks herself this question at some point. It seems like more and more I'm asking this every day. My kids are awesome! Really awesome! They are great little people. But how do other moms do this? Regularly, I feel like I'm losing my mind. People constantly tell me "I don't know how you do it." I'm not doing anything special, and frankly, sometimes I feel like I'm barely holding it together. I just keep trucking along. I'm so afraid I'm going to screw my kids up. Is that an irrational fear? Does every other mother feel that same way? Am I just rambling now?
So since I've last updated this blog (aside from adding a few things like the bucket list), we've added a new addition. Lila Charlotte joined our family on Friday, February 17th, and she is just about the cutest little thing ever.
Having four kids is really hard. Somebody always needs something. Sometime I want to go to my room and just sit and do nothing and just enjoy the silence. Ha! That isn't going to happen. This blog post has been sitting in draft mode for a long, long time waiting for me to finish what I'd like to say. I've actually taken a lot out. I was experiencing some depression, and you know what? That's hard for me to say. Why is that so hard? It's like a dirty little secret that I'm ashamed to admit. Isn't that awful?!? This time I knew what the problem was because I have experienced it before, so I knew what to do. Thankfully the times I've experienced depression it was caused by medicine I was taking. This time is was from the IUD I had implanted. I had hoped that it wouldn't effect me the way other hormone birth control pills do, but it was. I'm done with that stuff. Never again will I add synthetic hormones to my body. My body just doesn't cope well with them. I don't know if other people have experienced this, but I figured I'd share my experience just in case it will help somebody else.
I'm getting used to life with four kids. Most days are exhausting, and I'm ready to fall into bed. Some days are really challenging. Some days I'd like to send one or two or four kids off to their grandparents, but I don't. Thankfully though I do have awesome in-laws who take the older three kids on a regular basis for a weekend away. That time is so nice because I get to share it with my favorite person and the cutest baby on the planet. I won't lie though. It will be nice once she is sleeping through the night and she can go for an overnight stay at the grandparents' place. :)
We are in the process of renovating a house, and we should be moving next week. You know what that means? No more homeschooling!!! I'm so excited about that. As much as I'd like to be, I'm just not one of those moms who can handle it. I couldn't do it! We homeschooled Hana for two years, and I'm so thrilled to put her back in public school. Jonah is in kindergarten, and Hana is in third grade. School started on Wednesday, and they love it. What I don't love is having to drive them 25 minutes to school in the morning, but we will only have a few more days of that before we can move all of our stuff into the new place. I'm so excited. I have a bunch of before and after photos to show the progress we have made on the house and those should be up soon.
On another note, I'm planning to start blogging more. Maybe I shouldn't even say "more" because that implies I do it at all. So I'll just start saying that I'm going to blog. I'm hoping for once a week or more. I want to use it as an outlet for several things. 1. Sharing our home renovation photos. 2. I'd like to start journaling about my weight loss. I say that like it is happening now. It isn't, but it needs to be. And I think blogging about it will keep my motivated and accountable. If you don't see any posts about it, drop me a line and give me a hard time about it. 3. Adventures and the hilarious things my little people say. 4. Working toward living a better story.
I think that is it for now. Talk to you again soon!